I just want to clarify that I got nothing against kids having pretty clothes or anything like that. It's just that I WANT THOSE TOO!! Yeah I can fit into those and I have nothing against adult person using kids clothes aslong as they fit u but it's just that........ I don't know if I can ever go to work wearing same clothes as the kids that come into my store with their moms. It's just weird but I'm really close at ordering those clothes despite being lookalike with kids.
When it comes clothes, I think aslong you feel comfortable, confident and happy in it, wear it no matter what others think or say.
At work I go with that too. Even if something suits perfectly a customer but they don't feel like it's the one, I just tell them how I see it but I let them know that it has to feel right or else it's a waste. I don't want anyone to wear something that isn't making them feel good. I don't want them to pay for feeling bad. I want them to buy something that makes them feel amazing, confident and happy! Because we all have to do things that make us happy. We shouldn't do things that make us feel bad. I'm sorry but we have to be a bit selfish, not rude or douchy but we got only this one life so make it worth it.
Weekend! It's WEEKEND! WEEK-END! I don't have work tomorrow nor on sunday, yey! I do love my work but I want to spend more time with my loved ones at times. I do love my customers at work so it really doesn't feel like work! But back to weekend. Sooooooo I went to store to get myself something good for weekend. Everyone bought lots of alcohol and kids bought sweets for weekend. And what on earth I buy for my weekend?
Garlic sauce. Yes, sauce, garlic sauce.
Yes garlic.
I do love chocolate but garlic is heaven for me. I honestly love it so much. If u guys could only spend a week with me, you would eat sandwich with garlic, tuna salad with garlic sauce, chicken salad with garlic sauce, hot chicken wings with garlic, garlic bread and much more. I always have to have 2 bottles of garlic sauce and garlic powder in my kitchen. Or else I'm good as dead. I can't be without garlic. Garlic rye bread<3 OH GOD!<3 I just love it so so so much.
So vampires watch out! I smell like garlic probably from miles away.
ps. pics provided by google search, I'm lazy to take pictures of garlic and those are prettier and I felt like this post needed some weekend garlics. Thanks!
PSS. Overate garlic, feeling sickish. Some get drunk and really sickish due that, but no I do that with garlic..........
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I happened to find so dreamy new things at H&M's site and suprisingly all on kids section..... and I won't probably buy those because I'm unsure if I really want to buy more clothes because I think I already have "enough", well more than "enough". *cough cough whole apartment full of shoes and clothes*
So here they are:
This jacket is so so so so so so so CUTE! I just can't wait to get it and combine it with some rough outfit. Like black leather pants and black top with this<3 This would so soften up my outfit! I just love this one so much! When I saw this, I decided that I need this! I can't live without it! It's just so perfect!
Whats there to not love about this one? It's pink, it's golden, it has a rose, it has adorable leaf and it has a chain! Well okay to be honest I don't like the round shape and glitter(as I'm sure it will all fall off in no time) but this still stole my heart!
This is really pretty too thought...... This reminds me of some ice queen. This would be so perfect party bag. perfect for that. So beautiful<3
Teddy creamy fur and black leather<3 This is so cute! So amazing! I want this one so bad! I can't imagine a day without having this on! It's just so amazing! I love it so much and I don't even like vests!.
I so so so so love them both! <3 They're both so pretty! I can't even make my mind which one is a bit better. I love the hearts and chain<3 And the slight reminder of Chanel bag! :)
This is the MOST PERFECT SEQUIN DRESS I have EVER seen! This so damn cute and so lovely! It would make me feel like a princess<3 I LOVE IT!
Should I buy these or not?
I really want to but my bankaccount wouldn't like it.
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I really don't get myself. I'm at work everyday 7hrs and once I get out of the work I feel like I don't have time to do absolutely anything! Thought I do a lot of things, such as go out to eat or sew something for friends or work. But when it comes to cleaning or blogging I sort of have no time to do those. I really need to reorganize my daily schedule. But it's thursday so it means that tomorrow is friday(wow really??) soo then I got no work on weekend so I might have to do everything such as clean the apartment! But I know what will happen. This happens every day off I got: I wake up extremly late (around 14-16) then I spend time with friends or family and return home at 22 then I'm too tired to do anything. Oh well maybe this weekend will be different. Got lots of posts to finish for blog! Gotta rush to work now thought! :)
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No no no I don't mean my boyfriend. I mean myself as crazy. Apartment looks like dumpster, like it exploded here......... It's huge mess. It will require days, weeks, months and lots of people to clean this. Everytime I get something I find some kind of problem that I have to solve before moving to next pile of mess. I really do wish I'm not only person on the world with this problem. Am I?
So I know I promised posts about another things but move in is getting closer and apartment looks horrible. My man will flee when he enters apartment. Bye bye relationship! I'm honestly not kidding. This is disaster. All those itsy bitsy things that I couldn't bother to find place for, found their place in my bed. So half of my bed is pile of small things. I got bathroom things in livingroom just because it's still open what will happen to bathroom. I'm unhappy with bathroom. It feels like its a lot smaller after renovation. Maybe it's just me but mom noticed same thing...
So anyways now I got few projects that need to be done before I can clean this mess. My curtains were too small for these windows but I want to use those curtains cause a) Got them from grandma b) Some are my all time favourites c) They fit perfectly my furnitures and other things d) It's a waste to buy new ones just because earlier ones are too small especially when I can sew.
Project nr 1: Kitchen curtains.
I got from grandma those cute kitchen curtains. Theyre green and white with pictures on it and ruffle edge.
Well unfortunately theyre not enough to cover the window and well look somehow incomplete. I went to many stores and fleamarkets to find matching green but I only found few shades brighter for 1€ on fleamarket. That was the closest of all shades and I spend 6hours in stores!!!
I got extra fabric that was supposed to be used as tiny curtain for my walk-in-closet but since I found some other curtain for it so then I thought this could suit kitchen. It's yellow with greenish flowers. Yes green, yellow and white in kitchen might not be good idea right?
But I love that yellow fabric so much! I want to use it so badly!!
So now gotta figure out what I'm going to do. Will I use that green fabric to make curtains to kitchen or make yellow a curtain and use green to make matching ruffle bottom as the grandma's curtains have?
Project nr 2: Living room curtains.
Grandma gave me her BEAUTIFUL brownish grey curtains with creamy white flowers. I love those curtains! But same problem as with kitchen. My windows are way too wide. Matching curtains is impossible to find... Trust me I have been searching for such over half a year and searched through any possible place. So this one day I found on fleamarket pretty old style pink curtains. They got same fabric as grandmas given curtain and I love grey pink combination. It makes grey a bit less dark and pink calmer. But sure we can't get away with this without any extra problems! :) I excitedly took all those 4 pink curtains and paid for them, went happily home because I just hit the jackpot, straight away started putting them onto window and what do you know? 2 of the pink curtains are perfect of their size and another 2 are squares(WHY????) soooo I have to UNsquare them and make them match with the rest. But how to do that without any harm?
Project nr 3: Apron
I decided I need one or else..... I don't know, I'll guess I just remain messy then. I was thinking about making apron from that green fabric I got for kitchen curtains. I want my apron to be with ruffles and cute!
Project nr 4: Spare mattress
When I bought my bed, I bought first small mattress because I thought I won't find good bigger mattress with decent price anytime soon. Oh well after buying that within 4 days of that I found bigger one being sold with 60% discount!!! Ofcourse then I had them both. Now it's just time when I notice that having that spare one around the apartment without good place to store is getting annoying as its always on your way and it ain't really pretty enough to be on seeable place... So I thought I'll just put it under bed but there it will get dusty. So what to do? Well I thought I'll get some fabric that won't mind getting dusty (as in easy to clean off). I went through many stores and eventually I bought shower curtain and ill sew a "bag" off it to my spare mattress. Then it can be under bed without any problems!
Project nr 5: Walk-in-closet disaster
One of my clothes rails fell off the wall due earlier apartments owner totally screwing up the attaching to a wall...I have never seen so big uneven and weird shaped holes for so small screws. So need new clothes rails.....and I'm no good in things like this..
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We all know that mood affects our eating. For me honestly when I'm depressed, I start eating like a pig. When I'm sad I eat sweets. When I'm happy I eat a lot but only in company. Well share with friend or whoever I am with and it can a little or huge portion. Alone I tend to forget to eat when happy.
So how to deal with this?
I tried actually having certain times when to eat and tried to control portions. No use. My brain works too much based on my emotions. So I guess only way is to have someone else take care of u during that.
Lately I have been eating a lot less than usually and it resulted a weightloss of 2 sizes. But it's not healthy to eat less. Especially amount of food i had been eating... Cause it was barely nothing.
Luckily I been living at parents during renovations so it has helped me to stay still healthy cause family makes me eat. If I were alone at my own home, I would probably eat one sandwich as breakfast and then as dinner a bit of soup or so. Cause during day there wouldn't be foods waiting for me and when being tired due work, you really can't be bothered with cooking. Atleast I can't be. My only thought then is melt into couch.
But eating less is harmful for your body. Really harmful. So once I'm back home, I'll preparing meals for my whole day in the morning so when I come back from work, I only have to heat them up. Trust making meals in the morning is the easiest way. I always wake up 3hrs before going to work and after having cup of coffee or tea or chocolate milk, you feel finally alive and you could easily cook ur lunch and dinner then.
As snacks I would always take some fruit or yogurth or an egg. Cause theyre easy to just grab and go. Doesn't need any cooking and you don't have to carry empty lunchbox with you back home(yeah cause that empty lunchbox just weights INSANELY!!!).
So daily eating looks like this:
Breakfast: sandwich(rye bread, a bit butter, cheese/ham/slice of turkey or chicken and then tomato/cucumber or something else), oatmeal(make different oatmeals or change water to milk or juice(change juices) or cereals(I'm a kid, I love chocolate cereals, I fight with my 7yrs old brother who gets more of chocopops!).
Lunch: I'm usually at this time at work so its either oatmeal if I bothered to do it or a fruit or yogurth.
2x snacks: Both at work so either both are fruits or 1 is cereal bar if I want something sweet that day.
Dinner: Some decent dinner. Mashed potatoes and salmon cooked in oven or some wok or spaghetti and bolognese or tortillas etc.
Night snack: yeah usually after dinner you shouldn't eat but I can't help it. I have to get a yogurth or sandwich or tea with a pie etc. And it isn't basically night snack cause I spend 3 hrs after eating it infront of tv or doing something else. And if I won't eat it, my morning starts with huge pains of being so hungry or I wake up middle of the night due the pains and needing to eat which is even worse option.
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Suprisingly I have managed to vanish again. But my life has been through huge changes. Massive changes. Years lasting relationship ended, found someone unbelievably perfect for me, bought own apartment, got a job in a fashion store, got promoted, lost weight, reached my target size, got for me and my bf a dog from pound, apartment had a renovation and also despite having so much happening lately, I'm really happy with all. Yes renovation and bills been driving me nuts but I'm easy to drive nuts with such things. I'm happy with my job eventhought I do complain often. But I always complain cause things can always get better! Right?
Years lasting relationships ending wasn't actually that horrible as I thought it would have been. I imagined it as worse tragedy ever but it wasn't. To be honest it was a relief. Because I wasn't happy in it anymore and I think we both didn't care for each other anymore but stayed together because we had gotten used to being with each other after so many years. Oh boy was that a mistake? We just argued daily and both felt like another person didn't appreciate other and both of us kinda already wanted out. I'm sure he felt that way too. Atleast according to having a profile on dating site. We had fought about that many times but eventually I got tired of having to fight because of that because he didn't go out with anyone or talk anything suspicious with girls there, just that in his opinion it was ok to do so cause I have male friends and cause he ain't basically doing anything wrong. I again find having profile on dating site while being with engaged and living together with someone just disrespectful and rude. Oh and not telling that he is seeing someone... But who cares about that? Just wanted to get that out so in case someone is in same situation, DONT HESITATE, RUN! GET OUT OF IT NOW! Because it only gets worse and harder. Trust me. 4 yrs of being not interested in ur fiance and fighting daily over pointless stuff ain't good.
This new guy, we share so much incommon and yet we are so different. But unlike to earlier guy, this guy isn't giving me the attitude that we're equal so he doesn't have to spoil me with flowers and gifts etc. Yes we're equal but still doing something nice for loved one just to make her/him smile is important. Also we have same way of thinking so I don't have to fight daily about meaningless stuff. Also our fights are more like "fine, whatever, stop that, sorry" so even those fights are way more nicer, because he apologises, he ain't making it worse by mocking, he tries to end them and doesn't feed my anger. No I'm not that horrible as it may sound. I just HAVE TO end the fight right away and yes I apologise too but ex never apologised and made the fight way worse than it was before by mocking and not listening/talking about it. I'm really happy now honestly and not only cause it's fresh relationship but cause I feel loved and understood.
Own apartment. I never thought I'll do that but unfortunately that seemed as an only solution for me. I knew there were renovations coming soon but I loved the apartment. Location amazing, rooms have great space and I HAVE WALK-IN CLOSET!!!(which is already full! But im not only one that has stuff in there! Our doggy occupied 2/3 of the floor with his doggy food.) I have a lovely balcony. Yeah I love balcony. Without it I don't think apartment is cozy. Nothing beats sitting there every morning eating breakfast while birds are singing and spending evenings watching sunrise and drinking tea. That's such a pleasure. I LOVE IT!
My job is amazing. I can actually decide when I wanna work and how much. I can't decide much but atleast a little. Also it's a women fashion store, how cool is that? I love clothes and I love customerservice jobs and this is the finest customerservice job ever. I get to talk to people, help them and make them smile. Best part is that this ain't some rush all the time and force people to buy. No not at all. I get to talk with them without rushing and actually make the whole place seem like cozy store, where you get best service ever. You can decide if you need help, you can request for something special, you can leave without buying anything and I won't be staring you down. I mean I love stores like that. I hate nothing more than stores where salesperson is stalking you or then some HUGE mall so once you buy something, you know that other 12000 people are wearing it too and you can see the same cloth on street on other people. It's kinda depressing.
Doggy will get his own post and so will the weight loss part. I don't want to make this deadly long and I intend to make short post of what's up.....
Ps: We're moving in with my bf! Hurray!!
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I thought I could share a great idea how to satisfy your need of sweets.
Usually craving for sweets occurs when your diet is unhealthy! Atleast that's the reason for me. So I'll share the tips incase this might help someone else.
1. Of course nr.1 tip has always been to get rid of all sweets, but when youre sweettooth like me, that isn't going to stop you! Even if it's stormy day and I ran out of sweets, I'll go to store no matter how impossible the journey would be! Usually I'll just make the puppy eyes to fiance and he will give me his sweets. It works everytime!! But not everyone has fiance who stores a huge amount of sweets or fiance at all.
2. Avoid the sweets in store or go to store right after your meal. Avoiding the sweets doesn't help me at all. And going to store after meal works only if I had healthy meal before it. If I had pizza before going to store, I'll gonna buy lots of sweets!
3. Brush your teeth when craving for sweets or have a gum. Brushing the teeth hasn't helped. No matter how bad the candies have tasted after brushing teeth, I have been still eating sweets. Chewing a gum for awhile has helped. But it isn't healthy to consume 20 gums just because you can't control your sweettooth any other way.
4. Replacing sweets with fruits. This would be a great tip if it worked. It just caused me to eat sweets and fruits.
5. Consuming less or eating slow. Consuming less is not an option to me. But if you consume constantly less you should over time get used to consuming less. Eating slow has never been my thing. I'll swallow chocolate bars as whole. Having little bites would only mean to mean having little bites faster. Maybe I just can't enjoy my sweets?
6. Change sweet chocolates to dark chocolate. For some people this has helped. For me this had no other effect that now I own lots of unopened dark chocolate bars. 70% dark chocolate just doesn't seem to fill my craving for sweets.
7. Eating healthy or small frequent meals(every 3-4h). This has certainly been the best tip ever. Especially doing both of those! Healthy food makes you feel full and frequent meals make sure that your blood sugar doesn't get too low! Also no skipping meals!!!
8. Replace sweets with healthy versions. This is nearly same with replacing sweets with fruits. But for me this works a lot better. Baking some sweets pies myself is great way to make sure your pie doesn't have too much sugar or fat in it! And putting some extra fiber into it makes it more delicious and more satisfying. Also sometimes I make pan-fried bananas. Just frying bananas on pan, makes them a lot sweeter and it is healthier than eating candies. No need to add sugar. Just add some cinnamon and it is divine! It's even still healthy if you add a little of vanilla ice cream with it! Or something I have loved a lot from childhood: semolina porridge made in juice! It's so delicious. My mom and grandma have always made it as a dessert(or why not for breakfast) and it is divine! I can add recipe if anyone is interested. It is easy to make and it's good replacement for sweet. Also eating halva, corn porridge or nougat satisfies my craving. Overally adding a little bit jam into your porridge makes it sweeter and safisfies craving for sweets.
Also for me helps drinking a cup of soy milk a day or few cups of herbal teas(especially mint tea). I have heard that drinking a lot of water reduces the sweet craving, but never tried it myself.
Say NO to artificial sweeteners or diet soda's(and those low-fat products). Those things are bad! Also don't try my tip that I didn't include into the list for it's unhealthyness. I sometimes buy huge packet of chocolate and eated all in one day. Then for next whole week, seeing sweets makes me feel ill. And don't follow a tip that makes you unhappy. Like for me eating 70% dark chocolate wasn't my thing at all. So instead I started to make more often semolina porridge. And now instead graving for chocolate I actually I'm craving for more of semolina porridge!
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It seems that I'm doing this quite often. Going away for a long long time and then posting few posts and then vanishing again. It's just lately life has felt really really unfair and more confusing than enjoyable.
Waking up every morning is frustating and I feel like hiding from everything. My new school is great. I have nothing against it. Just the whole system is something so disgusting and I have everything against it. I like the school a lot. Compared to earlier one, this one feels like a school where you would wanna go to every morning. But those final exams are just scaring me. A LOT!
Every morning I feel like crying but I keep it to myself. Every evening all that hiding of tears ends in crying and feeling like there is no reason to go on. The exams wouldn't be such a pain in the ass for me if I would had a normal life. Not whole childhood moving from one place to another, without ever learning to use any language properly. Now I'm stuck. I try my best to learn but then I get my essays back and I noticed that all my hard work was a waste of time. Same mistakes done all over again.
Also lately I lost 2 pets, that were dear to me. And my job(which I eventually quitted) wasn't making the recovering from the sorrow any easier. Those pets were my family members and I loved them a lot. Losing them felt like my heart has shattered into little pieces.
I have been lately working out only with my mother. As only in front other people I try to behave like everything is fine. Maybe I should post more here. Maybe it will make me feel better. Maybe nothing will change?
I have always tried to work for my dream but lately my dream has started to feel like it's unreachable and trying to get to it, would only lead me to even more trouble. Eventhought everyone says I shouldn't give up. Why not? At this current state, I can't follow my dream. And later doing it feels like, it's too late already. My fiance keeps saying that there isn't such thing as too late when it comes to my dream. But for me it sounds like a lie.
Oh well only time can tell what my decision will be and I'll have to keep on believing that something good will happen.
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Yesterday I decided to pick up my bike and since I chose walking over using a bus I ofcourse didn't take any extra money or my busticket with me. It was very lovely sunny day! But it was mistake to choose walking. Because the very moment I arrived, I noticed that my bike's tires are empty and guess what, ofcourse it meant that I have to walk those 10km with my bike on my side. Oh and I love those hills that we have here. My bike weights a lot too!
Oh well on the other hand, I did enjoy the beautiful nature, sunny day and also I could that 20km as a workout. :) And also took pictures while walking!^^ I first thought I would share some here but once noticing how crappy they look I thought that rather not :p I blame my phone!
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This is often how EVERY woman feels. Atleast at some point in our lives we feel like this. Usually overweighted people think that they are only one thinking like this. But they are wrong!
When I was 1 size smaller(I was at my "best" shape back then), I always felt like there's a lot needed to change in my body. I want smaller bum, bigger breast, smaller thighs, smaller belly, simply I want everything to be smaller.
At this point I still see that there's a lot work to do with my body to be happy with it but I have accepted it at the moment. Yes, my belly isn't good enough and bum isn't small enough but hey this is the shape I'm going to have even when I lose the extra weight. I will always have a bit bigger bum(I blame my bones ;) the usual) than what I want. But it's what it is. Same like with personality. I am what I am and so is my bum!
We often look upon all those skinny ppl and think wow, I wanna look like that. But to be really honest the only that makes you attractive is being yourself and accepting yourself as you are. Our insecurity shines through us and that makes us less attractive. And to be really honest, there's nothing beautiful in having a body that has no shapes but only bones. I'm not against skinny people, I'm against unhealthy people. Being unhealthy is ugly. Your skin will lose the beautiful tone and shine and you won't be feeling good about your body either.
When you try to improve your health, you improve everything. But you need to draw a line there too. I love chocolate and all sorts of sweets. No matter how much I wanna live a healthy life, sweets will always be part of my life. Of course I consume a lot less sweets than before but allowing myself to not go nuts about this health thingy.
So instead of thinking that
once I lose this fat that is surrounding my body, I'll be happy
think that
being healthy is all need to be happy.
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I really thought that finally everything will settle down and I can finally continue blogging more often but no. First I had to spend time with family a lot, go to gym and work. And I still don't have internet in my current apartment but it allowed me more time to spend at gym, sunbathing and family.
Internet is addictive for me :P I can spend all day on it. But now I spend a lot of time infront of tv because I found channel which has a lot of interesting stuff for me! "no, I'm not coming to sleep yet, there's documentary about one bridge!" "You seriously going to watch that??" Am I addicted to TV if I rather watch documentary about bridge and go to work while being really tired? Yeah, I might have a problem :D
Anyways I'm happy now for getting awesome apartment next month and hopefully this constant moving will end now! :))) I'm soo happy!
Oh ye I decided that I could take lots of pictures now that there's constantly sunny and warm outside but I lost charger of my best cam and the other cam's pics are horrible and its way too big to carry with me. The usual. When you need or want something you can't have it :D
How's your summer?
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I'm really sorry for not posting for a long long time. I have had many ideas what to post but moving out into temporary apartment is really frustrating and time-consuming. The case is that first I was moving into apartment next to beach and woods. Beautiful area but some problems occured in the apartment. Then I had to run around the city to find suitable apartment. No luck :P
Now my friend offered her own apartment, since she is going abroad tomorrow and I can live in her apartment for next 3 months :) Yey! It really bought me some extra time to find apartment that I like and location is great! 10 mins away from gym, 15 min away from family, 20 mins away from beach!! :D Also it takes only 25 min to go to work! ;) Perfect!
Also reason why I havent posted anything(in addition of being soo busy) it's because at the moment everything is packed away so I can't find all the clothes I want to show to you guys and my diet is been horrible. I decided that during summer I will eat a lot more fruits, since I love them a lot and during summer it's just perfect meal for being so light and tasty :) But diet has been like this:
Breakfast - oatmeal with strawberries
Lunch - apple
Snacks I totally have forgot to eat.
Dinner - Chicken with rice or creamy mushroom soup.
In this hurry I forget to eat and I don't feel hungry during summer because warm weather somehow makes me feel bloated. (weird?) Forgetting to eat is really really bad. Nobody should ever do that. It has far more downsides in it than anything good.
I haven't loosed any weight due the fact that stress causes me to eat constantly something :P So I have pretty much eaten all the cookies and chocolates I had stored for a bad day. Until I bought salty peanuts and started eating those. Even stress can't make me eat those more than few. It's not that they taste bad. Theyre delicious. It's just the salt that prevents me from eating too much.
I can't wait to get rid of this moving part and start to enjoy the summer! :) I have started biking a lot and it's a great way to get tan too. Oh soon I get to go to beach, picnics, feed ducks and squirrels and have lots of fun! Now we just need more of those sunny days and less of those fake days. I hate those. You can see its a sunny day but once you get out it's cold and windy! :(
Once I have moved into my friends apartment, I'll try to work everything out and then I'll share more of my diet and clothes etc :) Since during summer nothing beats fruit/berry smoothies that replace meals and taste great ^^
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