Tuesday, 26 January 2010

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Ugh, I hate mornings. x) I'm too lazy to do anything and it takes around an hour to get ready to go to school or work and I still manage to be LATE! Also I'm pissed off because I start to think about stuff I don't want to. Maybe because I saw something in my dream or it just came to mind again. What's most annoying?? I'm unable to eat! I feel sick before going to sleep and I still feel the same illness when I wake up. I believe that all that illness is caused by thinking about next day. I can't stand going to work or school. Both remind me everyday that I should apply to another place.

Yes, there is a picture of a towel next to the text. So now we got the great part. NEVER MIX WHITE LAUNDRY WITH BLUE ONES! Well it's actually pretty blue, I like it. It's just a reminder for everyone.
Also there's a lot to do lately, so we'll see when I'm able to write again something. =]

Thursday, 7 January 2010

hair dye....

This morning I haven't really been satisfied with anything. Everything just annoys the crap out of me.. I see a car and it really makes me scream from frustration or anger or just anything. I don't really like mornings when I wake up too early or haven't really been able to sleep well.. I have some kind of insomnia bothering me..
Anyway one thing actually made me really angry. Has anyone ever wondered when you buy hair dye you get hair conditioner that actually is better than the ones you use usually. Why can't they sell those?? I hardly ever find anything good for my hair since my hair is picky....
Ugh I'll probably fail school. I have no motivation and every morning feels like I just wanna give up. I don't wanna learn anything, I don't wanna see anyone. I just wanna do what like to do at home. Work isn't as bad as school. Sure I hate some people there but atleast I have fun and I'm forced to listen to some boring stuff that makes me even more tired than I was when I woke up..
I have wanted to change school for ages.. I guess it's just a dream that never comes true. Something always happens so I won't be able to change. First I wasn't able to get any needed papers for it. Next year they lost my application and found it too late. What will happen this year?? Honestly, I don't even want to know. sigh... I want to go to that school really badly. I want to start doing what I enjoy doing. I have loved designing and doing all sort of crafts all my life. I don't want to know how this world works or what cells can do! I don't care!!! I would rather watch grass grow for months than study something like that..
Now I'm really hungry. Probably thanks to thinking about grass growing. Yey eating salads and stuff rocks!!! NOT. Just that I have fridge full of veggies and fruits so no other choice..

NB: I was actually about to write about that hair dye thingy but I ended up complaining! Whoo good job, Captain! You sure know how to go off topic..

First post...

To be honest I have been actually lately pretty happy with my life. I'm very pleased with my body. For last 2 days I have been eating only once and I ate BigMac's! Haha, I'm living soo healthy life!!! No really.. I usually dance atleast for an hour and I try to my 25 minute hiit's everyday. Sometimes I'm too lazy so I just don't exercise or count calories. Just do what I want to. Then I return back with great motivation and do my exercises and count calories.
Hmm what about today. Well I have been dancing today again. Not following someones instructions. Just moving like I feel like and listen to what I want and I dance as much as I want to. I'll do my hiit's after dinner spaghetti bolognese... yummy<3