My body disgusts me.

This is often how EVERY woman feels. Atleast at some point in our lives we feel like this. Usually overweighted people think that they are only one thinking like this. But they are wrong!
When I was 1 size smaller(I was at my "best" shape back then), I always felt like there's a lot needed to change in my body. I want smaller bum, bigger breast, smaller thighs, smaller belly, simply I want everything to be smaller.
At this point I still see that there's a lot work to do with my body to be happy with it but I have accepted it at the moment. Yes, my belly isn't good enough and bum isn't small enough but hey this is the shape I'm going to have even when I lose the extra weight. I will always have a bit bigger bum(I blame my bones ;) the usual) than what I want. But it's what it is. Same like with personality. I am what I am and so is my bum!
We often look upon all those skinny ppl and think wow, I wanna look like that. But to be really honest the only that makes you attractive is being yourself and accepting yourself as you are. Our insecurity shines through us and that makes us less attractive. And to be really honest, there's nothing beautiful in having a body that has no shapes but only bones. I'm not against skinny people, I'm against unhealthy people. Being unhealthy is ugly. Your skin will lose the beautiful tone and shine and you won't be feeling good about your body either.
When you try to improve your health, you improve everything. But you need to draw a line there too. I love chocolate and all sorts of sweets. No matter how much I wanna live a healthy life, sweets will always be part of my life. Of course I consume a lot less sweets than before but allowing myself to not go nuts about this health thingy.
So instead of thinking that
once I lose this fat that is surrounding my body, I'll be happy
think that
being healthy is all need to be happy.